“I’m very blessed, thankful, grateful for the opportunities I’ve had.” – Christen Press
It has been a month without daily postings, even though a ton has happened. Girlchild2 went back to SLO, and college has started for both. Girlchild1 as a Senior and Girlchild2 as a Sophmore! Have no idea where the time has literally just disappeared to. It is not that I have not been grateful, but I have been processing all that has been happening in my life this year. I have already mentioned some of these things, but this is where I am now. I knew in my heart that my dad probably wouldn’t see the end of the year, and also prayed (selfishly) that he would not have to exist for eternity in his current state. He no longer had any concept of time, amongst other things, which was probably more distressing for me than him, making him relive sadnesses in his life so often, as though they happened yesterday. God took him home, but it doesn’t make things any easier. I am at peace, and feel as though I have had a great burden of providing happiness and joy lifted from me. But, it has also marked the end of an era for me. I am the only one of my immediate family left. It feels as though I am too young, only because I am a little resentful still that I have outlived my siblings, and have not had close family get togethers. But, that said, we have been nomads for the past eight years, with no real roots, and little time to make really close friends that would become family where we have lived, so have not even allowed for family gatherings with any real depth. So, I have been reflecting on my many blessings, especially for those of family, a kind generous husband and two gorgeous (inside and out) girls, and am thankful for all of these and grateful for all our opportunities, and the ability to travel and share our experiences with others. I am reminded of my many blessings each and every day by different things…and most often the beautiful sunrise. I am grateful that I can get up and run (and it is relatively safe), have a dog that adores to run with me, and for the promise of a new start each and every day.
